Testimony from a Graduate
My Mom reminded me of something this morning. It was 4 years ago today that I graduated from Mountain Ministries.
Mountain Ministries is a year long faith based drug and alcohol discipleship/treatment center.
I entered the program October 28th, 2013. I was in pretty bad shape at the time, addicted to heroine and meth.
I was broken, depressed, weak, all those adjectives you can write. At the same time I've never been stronger than I was that day.
It was the day I decided to fight, the day I decided to not give up.
I had wanted to give up. I had wanted to die for a long time. I'm glad I didn't choose to end it, glad I didn't kill myself, glad I didn't accidentally kill myself,
or get killed by some of the people I was involved with. I'd been trying to kill myself for a long time.
I just couldn't do it.
5 years with no heroine or meth. 5 years of getting my life back. I don't think I've ever been stronger,
I don't think I've ever been happier. I wish I could say it was easy, but it's not.
Somedays I still have to make the decision to keep fighting, to keep choosing life. It's the decision I'll keep making, however.
I just had some teeth pulled Wednesday. A wisdom tooth, and a molar next to it. The dentist
asked me if I wanted some opiods for the pain. I said no. I wish it would've been an
easier decision to make. I made the right decision though, and I will keep making
Pain is interesting though. It makes you think. It makes you feel. I spent years
avoiding it, avoiding it at all costs. I'm learning to embrace it now, to learn from the pain.
To feel it, accept it, and breathe through it. It's almost always temporary.
Anyway, just some thoughts. Thank you all for the love, support, and encouragement. Couldn't be where I am today without all of it.
-Ryan Retterath, 2014 Mountain Ministries Graduate